Missing You Dearly

Posted on Aug 04 in Life Logby ApplePrint

A familiar face shown in front of me. I’ve seen photos of her through Facebook. It was the first time I saw her in person. She came and brought along food for her son. It’s a touching scene, at least for me, it is. That motherly love is irreplaceable. My friend’s mom came to visit him today at the workplace. I know his mom used to prepare food for him to bring to work, or make yummilious food. I always ask him to treasure all these. Well, I know he is a good boy and won’t mistreat his mother.

I’m actually jealous. Jealous of those who can have this motherly love. I have lost this love for 11 years. I’ve grown strong and tried to live a happier life. But whenever I think of her, I still feel that part of my world is gone. My world cannot totally shine without her.

11 years ago, she left me and my little sister. She was really sick and we had not talk much, not even a last word. Thinking back about this scene really makes me feel depressed. I saw her breathed in and let go of her last breath right in front of my eyes. I was 15 back then.

She is living in my heart forever, but it does still hurt when I think back all the memories together with her. I was not a good girl. She used to ask me to give her back massages. I disliked it, just like how my sister dislikes to massage me when I ask for it now. Only now I do understand why she loved back massage so much. There are still a lot of things which make me feel regret for not treasuring all the moments with her.

When can we learn to treasure the things we have now before losing them?

I believe I’m strong enough to face a lot of challenges in life. But still…
Mom, I miss you dearly.

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• remblue says:

  August 7, 2010 at 7:13 pm

  aww For some of us we learn lessons in life through hardships & mistakes, it’s never known to us why these things happen, but we must all move forward as life tells us we have to. We take the experience and we move forward. I can never know what it must feel like, as I was given a second chance in my life, with my father that is. when i was 21 he became very sick & asked me to help him but i was living a selfish life then & instead went out with friends, he soon went into the hospital and for 2 months was in a coma – they told us to pray & that there would be no chance but one april morning he just came out of it & since then i have never thought twice when he asked me for something.

  I dont know of your beliefs in life nor do i ever try to force mine onto others but i believe as she lives on in your heart; you live on in her’s — the earthly body may fall but love never dies, not in this life — but you will reunite one day & then there will be no more regrets.

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