A.P.P.L.E

Another Friday the 13th, the so called Black Friday. But it’s our anniversary date since the day we stead. I was sorry for what happened last night, but hey I really don’t like to be pig. We all have a choice, and I choose to be with you for this long, will never simply let it go. Today is also the starting day of the RWMF. I don’t think we can make it this year…as you have to work and ….

Anyway, happy 1 year and 9 months.

My blog was “shut down” for few hours since morning, due to some emotional issue. Don’t ask me the reason, and this is my first time cried a silent tears for A.P.P.L.E. How naive…

People get to improve when they get all sorts of criticism. Thanks for those who concerned about my behavior earlier this morning. I’m fine now and I’ve decided to move on. And I’m glad that I didn’t really “delete” my blog. Instead, just having a “decoy” blog. Or else, I WOULD HAVE DEFINITELY REGRETTED WHAT I HAD DONE. Yokata~

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I finally take it positively, didn’t I? I hope you’re proud of me.

I have friends of my age getting engaged back few years ago. But I don’t know if they are married by now, because I seek no news from them. Last Sunday, I received a wedding invitation card from one of my friends. Well, he is slightly older than me, but still consider young as I think he’s still in his twenties. First time received a wedding invitation card, just for me! I always see wedding invitation cards on the table, but those ain’t for me, instead are for Dad. Now, finally, an invitation for me. Do you know what that means?

It simply means, I’m now a “grown-up” as well. I’m an adult myself. I’m gonna turn 23 just in less than 2 weeks time. So, you gonna say, above 18 or 21 is already considered an adult! Yea, I know..I’ve passed 18, even 21, but I still feel like a kodomo (kid). The “freedom” that I’ve always wanted is not given to me yet. Freedom? Freedom of what? Freedom of making my own choice without any fear. Freedom of doing my personal stuff regardless of thinking about how will parents think.

Put it this way. I’m afraid to be discovered by parents that I watched blue films. I’m afraid to be discovered by parents that I wash my honey’s cloth back at home. I’m afraid to be discovered by parents that I do things that they feel it’s wrong. I’m afraid to be discovered by parents if I do things of an ordinary adult will do, in short. Get what I mean? Even dating my honey, I feel like I’m in guilt sometimes.

Well, don’t tell me you live more than half a century then you’re gonna give me pieces of advices on what you experienced. You can’t judge a person wrong by your own point of view. You can’t force a person to think and act identical to you. It’s my life, I ought to have my own choice. Don’t tell me life is not about choices, don’t tell me it’s you that give me life. I tell you what, I’d rather never exist in this world…oh but wait, if I never exist, means I never met my Orange…ooppss..means I still gonna thank those that give me life.

I believe deep inside my heart that life is made up of conditions which consist of fate and choices. Life is full of possibilities, by answering conditions of IF…THEN ELSE…, a lot of FOR X…THEN…Y, DO Y…WHILE Z….make choice wisely as we don’t have much iteration in life. (Carried too far, it link me to programming logic)

In conclusion, I’m slowly getting older, and I wish to have my own freedom someday? I know setting up own family doesn’t mean you get freedom, it means more responsibilities. K, back to the wedding invitation. I’m going for a wedding dinner this coming Saturday with Neonplanet @ 6.30pm.

When’s my wedding? Secret.

A reply for Cherry.

If there are 2 things that really exist, I might wanna try:

The Jigoku Tsūshin from the anime Jigoku Shoujo
The Jigoku Tsūshin is a black colored website that said to be only accessible at 12 midnight. There’s only a sentence あなたの怨み、晴らします。, which means “We will take revenge on your behalf” and a 送信 Send button. The person whose name is entered in the text field and successfully sent to Enma Ai - the Hell Girl, will die a painful death based on how he/she treated the victim (the person who access the web) The Death Note from the anime Death Note The Death Note is said to be a mysterious book left by the Shnigami - Death God. “The human whose name is written in this note shall die”. If you think of the person and write his/her name inside the Death Note, she will die after 40 seconds. If you got write how he/she will die within the limited time frame, he/she will die the same way as stated by you.

Wahaha..well, just get myself into the mood to watch this 2 anime.
Jigoku Shoujo and Death Note.

He mentioned about you.
He said you’re a lazy person and useless because 400-500 per month can’t do anything to support a family. He said you don’t even have a car.

Silly me, at first I thought he mentioned about a random friend of mine. Until the “comment” went on, I just realized that he was mentioning about you. That’s why at first I gave a reply of “That’s non of my business, it’s his matter.” Just when I knew he was talking about you, I couldn’t take back my words of “it’s his matter.“. The rest is silence from me.

His word keep echoing beside my ears and I really think it’s so disturbing and unpleasant. I stumped the keyboard when o2jamming while chatting with Cherry, my sis.

So, he was complaining of your low paid salary and your “properties”. To find a guy with 5Cs (Cash, Credit card, Car, Condominium, Certificate), you think is so easy meh? (How about TRUE LOVE?)

I know he is a perfect guy with another extra C:
1. Cash
2. Credit card
3. Cars
4. Condominium
5. Certificate (lasap one, I suppose, ’cause only high school standard)
6. Children (take note is not CHILD but CHILDREN)
With the full 6Cs, he has wooed an ugly (inner or outer beauty - you decide?) 2nd YOUNG wife whose age is 7 years gap from his eldest daughter.

AWAKE LA, YOU!!
*Note: Translated as the original is in Mandarin*

That’s the words that keep echoing beside my ears.

I remembered what I said to you before:
I won’t force you to change job anymore, it’s your choice, you decide.
Yup, choice is yours. So I didn’t mention this incident to you.

Hurt by him.

You should know who is the he and who is the you.